There are fewer and fewer dreams at night.
All i do is putting my head up onto the pillow, and then open my eyes, i get up, i go to work.
Things are so easy and they leave me less and less to think about.
The music of Gerald Peregrine hanging in the air, a book barely read lying besides my hand.
Something's gone.
所谓朋友的意义，不过是锦上添花的热闹。每个人内心的深渊，如果有痛苦、回忆或者其他，始终只能自己临崖独立，对峙这压力。他不可能让旁人来参观这深渊，人与人之间的理解完全南辕北辙，也很少有怜悯。大抵就是如此。
The truth is that I feel terrible for every one of my freinds.
I am indeed a terrible relationship-dealer.
Sometimes i will find myself good at doing my best to destroy things.
There are times i say things or do things before logically thinking.
Then.
Some of them are gone. Some of them left.
I can hardly say that all of the times i don't regret for what i had done. But.
所谓的关系，重要的不是在情感本身得到的愉悦，而是在彼此的思维深度里获得愉悦。只有这样的交会，才会有可能获得途径渗入对方生命。当我们真正爱一个人的时候，不会想去控制和支配对方，也未必要在时间的限度里始终彼此占有。
I am not struggling to find out what is really called a relationship. Nevermind.
But i do believe in love.
I can tell that when you meet someone, you find his or her smell distinguished from others, and then you know.
You just know.
And then, no matter what you do, you chase him or her, or not. You keep thinking about him or her, or not.
These are not the point. He or she has already left their marks on your life.
You can never tell how they changed your life, but they do did.
And then you are not yourself. You are growing to be the one he or she hopes you to become.
对越来越近的东西，不需要犹豫。任何来的东西，都不一定是最终的结局。我们手中所拥有的，所多出来的，无非也就是这样一段徘徊和怅惘的过程。这里并没有任何是非对错的标准，有的只是经历。
Some day we will grow really really old.
Too old to carry a bag, too old to stand, even too old to think how long we will linger in this world.
We are there, and death is just around the corner.
We look back, see what the hell we had done.
We may laugh. We laugh at ourselves for being so mean to life while so generous to a very person.
我的船还没有过来。时间蒙住我的眼睛，让我猜。我的眼睛已经盲了。只能在回忆里凝望你。世间这样荒芜。寂静深不可测量。如果你不在我身边。我这样想念你。
Dad asked me what kind of wedding i want.
I smiled. Left the answer to him.
He said it appeared a lot in his dreams.
The whole world is red. And there are flowers, roses i guess. There are people. Guests are all wearing red.
There are laugh, there are tears.
He can't imagine how he gonna go through that day, and the rest.
他说，今日见你，觉得所有的时间和空间仿佛都没有存在。那种见到你就心里欢喜的感觉，依旧那样强烈。只是从前快乐的时光，都回不来了。她说，我们也有恨得咬牙切齿的时候。他说，我都不记得了。只记得我们好的时候。她说，那时候我们都太年轻，桀骜任性，对生活有诸多不甘和失望，因此彼此折磨。很多人如果换一个时间认识，就会有不同的结局。他便微笑。
Bullshit. Just kidding.
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